So I started game developing some years ago now.
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I first tried Game Boy Studio, which is fucking awesome. It's pretty easy and it looks nice.
I never mastered it, but I find it charming with its many limits. It makes me think in ways I desperately need to think. All the things I feel like I need to learn are there.
Of course, I stopped doing games for a while. With uni and a big depressive state and a crisis that I still haven't gotten over. It's still quite difficult to sit down and actually do something.
My first "game" was just a character walking around and interacting with the walls. It's a good game. I like it a lot. I learned a lot from it. Mostly that I can actually do something, I can make a character move and interact.
I know it might seem like something so small and useless. But it's my first game and I love it.
The second one is a fan game of Jonathan Sims from The Magnus Archives becoming a catboy.
The game I want to make is just a talking game. One where you approach the characters and they tell you weird shit. I want to make it so badly. I keep worshipping it. And recently I lost all my progress on it because of a computer malfunction.
Calling it progress is a lot thought. It wasn't progress. It was art. Art that I wasn't going to use because it has no meaning in the rest of the story. Now that I lost it all I understand. I need to make it shorter. I need to make it tiny and cozy and strange. But all the time I passed doing art wasn't it.
I need to focus on a thing and do it properly. It's funny how that works. I have a map, I have a design. But the dialogue always evades me.
I don't know how people talk. I don't know how character talk.
I'm more of a narrative guy. I like the prose. I could make it that way, but the kind of game I like needs talking. Actual voices for my beloved characters.
Most recently I started a game jam. I mean, I'm participating in a game jam. About trans representation. And I'm loving making my game. It makes me happy to see the things I code appear in the screen. I think is wonderful. I love it so much.
